Tooth Extraction

I would say that getting a tooth extracted is not the funnest part of my day. I was so painful at first, but when the Novocaine finally really started kicking in, it was a smooth ride, minus all the pressure.

the BreakUp

At abruptly 9:38 p.m. on the night of January 5th, 2010
I had my first real break up.
Now us being long distance and all
we needn't bother with the whole break up in person or text or whatever.
It just happened, and out of thin air too.
It was a real shocker to me.

After nine whole months and two weeks,
our romantic relationship just shattered.
Now I'm sure we both saw it coming
we just didn't know exactly when.

I'm happy it happened now.
I have six whole months to try to get my life back together.
A new year comes with a new beginning.
I guess that saying holds true.

Tears and Rainbows

When sadness rages over you like a tsunami in the night, you are at a lost. Despite the preparation you have bestowed upon yourself over the years, you still get hit with the greatest impact you can ever imagine. It tears you up inside knowing that there is so little you can do, and so much less that can actually be done. Your heart is beating to the beat of your heavy heaves and your eyes dilate to the very little light that gets past your solid tears. Your emotions are faint signs of desperation that go unnoticed from the person you call love. Your cry for acceptance doesn't even get passed the brick wall that's between you two. All this time you were a considerable humane creature, and now you're just a fleshy skin outline of lifeless jargon. To him you are nothing short of a meander from where he was really reaching for. You think to yourself if your life was worth the risk about going on this long adventurous journey. In the end, you find yourself in the con-caved spectacle you call your heart. No ones there with you; No one hears you. The silence disrupts the bliss that was forgotten long ago--The bliss that was never found due to incurable infatuation that was processed through your brain to be right. You sit in this silence only to be taunted by that love you call a man. Never do you speak of the words that he wants to sustain in the dark. Never do you wrong him of your actions. Never should you have to do anything that deals with the consequences of some foolish words that deson't mean anything if you believe it not to. You, my child, is the epitome of youth. With this youth, teach him a lesson. Do not let the fiery depths of his eyes scare you no more. Let it go; Happiness for you isn't quite far. Reach for it a tad bit more and you'll find that society has hidden it under your dark, restless eyes. Young girl, you have found what you've been looking for.

New Year

It is a new year.
It is the start of a new beginning.
It is the time for change.
Do not hesitate to feel the transformation.
We are all doing it--not just me or you.
EVERYBODY.

Last Year's Resolutions:

Thursday, January 01, 2009

1. 1. Lose Weight&Be Healthy
2. 2. Stay motivated enough to Learn to play an Instrument
3. 3. Don't waste time doing Nothing
4. 4. Stop being so crazy about boys
5. 5. Stay positive&Don't let anybody get to me
6. 6. Care more about others
7. 7. Don't spend so much money [like always]
8. 8. And others i can't really think of.

New Year Resolutions:

1. Lose Weight [always the major one, never happens]
2. Get more friendly [or make more friends&be a better one]
3. Save money man! [I really need to do this one]
4. Get a job [fuck the economy, I'm getting one]
5. Be more loving towards the BF [and stop arguing with him]

There you have it.
Resolutions from last year and the current.
Not much has changed.
So you know what that means.
HA!